Validation

Have you ever questioned your abilities? Felt less than? Wondered if you were good enough or doing the right thing? I have been feeling this way for quite sometime. Since going back to work I have been really struggling with being a perfect, wife, mother, friend, and teacher. I am such a perfectionist in that way. I need to do it all!
My biggest heartache is feeling like I am not perfect for my daughter.  I have to work, so I have to be away from her. I have provided her with the best child care option. She has the most loving caregiver, who comes to our home! Amazing! The time I do spend with her is always quality time. I put her first. I do all that I can to nurture her and help her develop. But still...
I don't feel like that is good enough.
Because I put her first, my housework, friends, and do I dare admit it...My husband is put second. This is not the way I want my family structured.
 It has to be, needs to be God, Husband, children, and the rest can follow.
So what did I do as reflected on this broken structure and feelings of inadequacy?
I prayed...
I spoke to God. I gave him my worries. I gave him my burdens. ( Reference;  Peter 5:7 and Psalm 55:22)  I asked Him to please just give me some validation. I just need to hear that I am doing something right.
And just like that, he helped me heal. He quieted my mind and filled my heart.

A friend randomly texted me, hours after I prayed, and shared that I was a topic of conversation within her group of  mommy/teacher friends. She said she just wanted me to know that her friends saw my instagram post  and pictures of my daughter. She said they were "impressed" and that I was "doing all sorts of the right things".
Wow! There it was. Thank you God for hearing me and helping me. I am doing a good job. I am enough.